Alexandra B. at the Timberlawn Mental Health System

A former patient – Alexandra B. – wrote about her stay at Timberlawn

WILL COME OUT WORSE THAN THEY WENT IN! Thank goodness he was only there for one day!!!

I am a fifteen year old girl who was admitted there at eleven, and ended up being taken out by my parents nearly four days out. Now, yes I am a kid, I was young when I was admitted, but I was also very observant in the ways they “Helped” us children. They did such a good job in fact, I still have nightmares about the amazing service and therapy.

On my first night I was in the waiting area for over six hours after being told that I had to be admitted by my PHP psychiatrist after having psychosis telling me to commit suicide, so not only being scared to death I had to sit inside a very scary waiting room that resembles a haunted house you see in horror movies, I was evaluated and admitted at about nine in the evening. I was not fed even after not eating dinner and immediately sent to a bed with only a thin scratchy blanket and a pillow that may or may not have felt like it was stuffed with balled up newspaper. I was woken up at three am to be asked about how I was feeling.

The next morning I was woken by a scary male nurse and told that I had to strip and be check for bruises by said MALE nurse. And after being humiliated and given some used sweats too big for me because my jeans had metal on them (A zipper and metal button) I was led to a small eating table and given old hash browns and cold bacon-shaped strips of food. I had therapy with some other lovely children, one young man who proceeded to tell everyone how he lit an annoying neighbors dog on fire because it was barking at him and one girl who was told Juvie or this a few other children too, so after a day of lousy therapy games and coloring I got meds and went to sleep only to be woken up and loaded onto a bus to the teenage boys and girls unit (Not separated) Be wise there wasn’t enough children to keep it open.

Next morning, were allowed to go outside, sort of, and I see a boy punch another boy four times right in front of the nurses before being pulled off when another kid notices. Hours later we’re coloring and a kid starts yelling at one kid for stealing his crayon and breaking it in two. The yelling child is pushed onto the floor and pinned down as a female nurse injects him with a strange unknown medication. This is getting too long… So a few hours and one chair throwing incident later, the kid who was injected with the stuff was sitting and a few female nurses tell him to come over to him, only to watch him stumble and trip a few times while laughing at him, they tell him they didn’t need him and to hi sit down again. A few more freak outs, a kid throwing a chair at me for trying to help him pick up colored pencils, nurses making fun of my ratted hair, and a Popsicle later, I was ushered to bed and continuously frightened as the teenagers poke their heads into my room, laugh and walk off over and over again I was traumatized. A few more days pass and I’ve been scratched by one kid, yelled at by a nurse for crying after one kid being ushere doff to the quiet room for having a violent outburst, made fun of by more nurses, and given instructions on how to break into a car before I am checked out of the hospital by my parents after telling them everything during visiting hour.


The original testimony

Feedback related to Eagle Ranch Academy in Utah

This feedback was found on the website Merchant circle.

I could only go as far down as 1 star. Review system won’t let me go any lower.

This facility’s “educational consultant” told a parent she would look into OTHER places, NOT just ERA. Lied. Never did. Deceived parent into signing rights away. So that ERA alone, in its sole discretion, can say who the child will return to once they are done brainwashing.

Even if David and Paul come form a good family doing good things, they are NOT professionally trained to handle psychologically challenged kids.

Staff says they do NOT take psych cases-another lie- only behavioral issues. They LIE, LIE, LIE, LIE and sell a bill of goods!


A mothers review of Timberlawn Mental Health System

A mother going by the name Missy P. write about her daughters stay at the facility

First off, my 14 year old daughter is an amazing kid! She is very smart, responsible, mature and dependable. No behavioral problems at all, but she has always suffered and struggled with bad anxiety and daily panic attacks. I have had her in therapy for years now, but her condition hasn’t improved. I began looking for some more intensive care for her and thought an inpatient program, where the doctors could witness her panic attacks for themselves, might be a good fit. She and I were then sent Timberlawn by Children’s Hospital.

Upon arrival, the front office in the white house was very scary. I had concerns, but was assured by the receptionist that the adolescent facility was nothing like the front office. We waited for nine and a half hours for my daughter be admitted. Once admitted, I was happy to see that the adolescent unit was in a different building. I got her signed in and settled. The following day, I went for visitation and had a traumatizing experience. The others girls (patients) were running around screaming, banging on walls, fighting, cops were there, there were run aways, and a couple of girls were shouting death threats to my daughter and another girl there. I pulled my daughter aside to speak with her privately. She told me how poorly she was being treated by the staff and some of the others patients. She had to ask repeatedly for her medications and was experiencing withdrawal symptoms before she finally received them. Another girl had slipped her a note telling how she was going to sneak into her room that night and kill her. There were pentegrams drawn on her bedroom walls and bed. There was a lesbian making sexual comments to her about what she wanted to do to her. She told me the staff turned on rap music that wasn’t even edited and was singing along to it with some of the patients. She said there were two group sessions that day, but that nothing was accomplished, due to fights and outburst from the other patients. During the day, they all sat in the main room and watched tv. My daughter said the girls all watched the show “Criminal Minds” nonstop! Wow just can’t imagine that being a healthy show for this group of girls. There was not constant supervision like I had been promised. My daughter had three trips to the cafeteria while she was there. She said each time, the boys beat on the windows and walls and yelled at them the whole time they ate. The place was miserably cold, and they are all given only one thin blanket. My daughter was woken up repeated throughout the night with an LED flashlight being shined in her face, even though she has reported sleeping difficulties. The staff was terribly disorganized and they were not the caring influence I thought I was signing my child up for. This place was a nightmare. I wanted a calm, peaceful, healthy environment for my anxiety ridden daughter to receive the treatment she needed. Instead, I am afraid my daughter is going to having lasting trauma from this experience. Timberlawn is NOT the place for kids who genuinely need help with mental issues. The only people I witnesses there were criminals and girls with severe behavoral issues. If you have a child who is a bully and you are trying to teach them a lesson, or if you have a child you are trying to scare straight and don’t mind them possibly being abused or attacked, then this place might work for your family. If your child truly needs some help with mental or emotional struggles, STAY AWAY!!!!!

I signed my daughter out after that first night! Of course they threatened the 24 hour hold on her and refused to let me take her home. I was forced to wait hours until the doctor agreed to release her. Please beware of this place. I will never be the same after this experience of fearing for my child’s safety and being forced to leave her there, knowing she could be attacked and was not being cared for.

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Testimony about Eagle Ranch Academy

A former resident going under the name Truth483685726587 provided this testimony about a stay at Eagle Ranch Academy:

This place works by breaking your child down until he/she literally believes they are NOTHING. once they are so traumatized and stripped of any feelings of self worth, ERA build them back up again and molds them however they want to.

For some.. the outcome is probably better than the alternative but the tactics and way in which they do it is WRONG. there are better option and safer ways. NO child should be denied phonically to their parents. Jails don’t even do that! no child should be forced to carry around backpacks full of sand for weeks at a time. NO child should be denied the right to use the bathroom. This place is a mess and the techniques they use are dangerous. I’m happy it worked for some but parents PLEASE seek alternative options before sending your kids here. PLEASE.. IT was the worst thing that has ever happened to me and I’ve had major set backs because of it. T

hey accept everyone so if your kid is just smoking pot or getting in trouble at school he could be bunking up with a gang member or meth addict. Its all about the money with these people. IF you have it, they’ll take it and make sure you keep your kid there to get “help”.


Wilderness program escape – a question of life and death

We have seen at two different cases where teenagers ran from their wilderness program. It happens more than the newspaper coverage let it seem like.

Parents need to take into consideration that the banishment to the wilderness programs often is involuntary. That means that there is a huge risk of escape. Parents next need to understand that teenagers don’t plan as adults. They have no knowledge of how even the slightest injury can lead to death.

In 1999 a girl escaped the Redcliff Ascent wilderness program.

Jude’s testimony about Eagle Ranch Acdemy

A former student named Jude provided this testimony about Eagle Ranch Academy

I was forced into ERA 3 years ago and it still effects me to this day. I honestly don’t know how this place hasn’t been shut down yet. I thought for sure someone would of spoken up by now. I will never forget some of the traumatic events that occured while i was at ERA and it is safe to say the program DOES NOT work. Parents–please don’t waist you’re money. These people are psychos, they took from me 8 months of my life i can never take back…

I would not wish this place on my worst enemies, never mind my own children. Please, if you are a parent thinking on sending your child here, I have a first hand perspective.. it doesn’t work. save your money.


A testimony about the now closed Excel Academy in Conroe, Texas

This statement was collected from the now-closed KittyRadio message board

Hello. I don’t know whether the above post is still active (or even credible; this site doesn’t seem to be geared towards political discussion), but there are a few things I would like to add about Excel Academy. I left there less than a year ago.

  1. Staff members never drank the water. Never in the 22 months I spent there do I remember a staff member drinking the tap water. It did not come from the local tap water source. It supposedly drew from a well (I have no idea how this worked; there were just some big machines that were explained to be wells), but this doesn’t really make much sense to me because the surrounding houses (the place was located across the street from country residential area). It was not connected to any of the local water management. It’s waste water was removed by a septic company (the septic also often overflowed, forcing all students to smell it). The water was always a grey, murky color; this was explained to be from air bubbles, which still does not explain why the staff would never drink it. All students broke out with worse acne when they go there; it was generally explained to them as withdrawal to drugs. One of my friends, who was a former heroine addict, showed up there with horrible acne; and I actually remember it getting slightly worse when he got there. I would not be surprised if there was something in the water.
  2. Almost all (it could be all; I can only comment from the lifestyle that was observable to the students) of the staff members had a huge paycheck. JJ (Jamie Risner) bought a new car every year and had a huge mansion. It’s worth noting that this was after paying off local authorities; I do not know how widely this was done but I am aware that this was not uncommon on some issues. Although a large part of that was on our parent’s pay (tuition was 5,000 a month plus a large sum for their extortionist policies of charging parents highly inflated prices for necessary supplies), I would not be too surprised on the possibility of contracts. I would like to see research and sources for this data. As far as contracts with the US government, I would not see this as any real indicator of that; but it is strange to note a very high number of ex-military staff* working at the place. There was also one who was a cop. He, along with another staff member, was in the Free Masons, although I’m not completely sure how relevant that is.
  3. Yes, as I begun to learn more about leftist politics, I had started to draw similarities between Excel’s conditioning techniques and CIA tactics. There was no waterboarding; but potential for physical abuse was high, especially in the earlier years*. The school was widely accepted to be a ‘behavioral modification program’. Although that phrase is creepy enough, I will point out that ‘behavioral modification’ is recondition; what happened is there is very creepy, and I still notice some conditioning left in me from it.
  4. Sleep deprivation was used, but was not widespread at the point which I was there. It was more of something used to break students which were open about their feelings toward the place****. In some cases, what was done was irregularly waking the student up at night; this was done under the excuse that the student was at risk for hurting themselves, although it was universally understood that that was the ‘on the record’ excuse used to make the action legally justifiable.

    There was also something called the ‘quiet room’; I am not quite sure what went on in there, and the details on it were widely suppressed among the student population. What I do know is that students were kept in there for as long as days at a time. During this time, a staff member would do things such as force them to do push-ups; adopt a ‘you sleep when I decide you can sleep’ policy; feed them a sandwich with a single piece of meat for meals; and require specified amounts of God prayers***** for food, water, and sleep.

    A student’s food choices were strictly managed. One selection of food would be prepared by the students, although the quantities and types would be chosen by staff. Students were given a designated quantity for their serving; this was strictly enforced. Students would be required to eat all of their food; failure to do so would be punishable, often by reducing the student’s meals to a permanent restriction of in proportion half of other students’. Many students could not handle the size of servings; they were forced to eat all of it. Vegetarians were forced to eat their meat

    When I first arrived, my appetite was severely limited by depression. I was put on half-portions, and the amount of food served also began to decline to a point at which most students were generally hungry. The food was, in many cases, disgusting; and made me gag. I do not know what I would have preferred to happen there. They starved me, but I was also dangerously overweight (255 pounds) from two psyche meds, both of which are widely known to cause severe weight gain. At this point, I am starting to learn that hunger is not something that is simply uncomfortable; I have started to realize that my current eating habits are unhealthy because I ignore my hunger until it is convenient to eat. I have also begun to realize that because of all my loose skin, I could look healthy when most people would have their ribs showing.

    *The place began to get much less abusive once Aspen Education Group bought it in 2001**. From what I have heard, very little changed at first; but then Aspen began to more aggressively investigate the practices of the school and found it to be a huge liability risk. They did not want to get sued, and therefore began to place some limits on Excel, which the school tried its best to circumvent and ignore. It was still really bad when I got there, and I was lucky that I didn’t begin to crack (and therefore break rules) until Aspen had started to more aggressively protect students’ lawsuit-worthy rights in early 2006. I believe that this testimony provides a look at what the school may have been like before Aspen began to intervene against the most egregious human rights violations the school committed.

    **Keeping in mind that I’m generally paranoid about things, I feel that the buyout is the only thing there that I have not directly observed which I know to be true. The flow of information was highly managed***, and I still cannot figure out what the hell was happening there. The intentions, goals, attitudes, and internal conflicts of staff members are not something that I can figure out. With the way they managed to brainwash parents, I would not be surprised if quite a few of them could put on a convincing act. I often try to figure out who (sometimes questioning even if the entire operation, by removing the students’ identity and therefore allowing them to build a new one free of the brainwashed culture****) was really there to help me and who was playing along to the tune of an inflated paycheck. I generally arrive at the conclusion that the entire place was run by greed.

    ***Anything not related to the school was not permitted to be discussed. This was enforced, and it was punishable to even say “Family Guy”. Nothing from the outside was permitted to touch upon our consciousness. The privilege to talk about sports, movies, and video games (of the last two, those few that were considered ‘appropriate’) was, however, permitted to be discussed by those who were not in trouble. The ability of students to talk with each other was also highly regulated. Those students who were on ‘blackout’ from each other were not allowed to acknowledge each other’s existence in any way, verbal and nonverbal as well as direct and indirect. This was much more strictly enforced between students of the opposite sex; some males wound up developing a strong fear of girls. All students who were on ‘six months and under’******* as well as all students of the opposite sex were on blackout from each other.

    ****One teacher there seemed to be a bit of a leftist, although I still cannot trust most staff to provide truth. He once pointed out that one of the practices there was conditioning, then commented that conditioning means brainwashing before joking “You’re minds are so dirty they need to be washed anyway. Wouldn’t you agree?”

    *****Most students put on an act, but some students – me included – would not yield. In general, students either did things they’d be embarrassed of (constant snitching, enforcement of rules; we moved around campus like chaingangs with invisible shackles) to their peers because they were ‘playing the game’ or be embarrassed of the way they acted because the place cracked them while they were there. Several of my friends who ‘played the game’ have since then expressed that they find the non-cooperative stance to be the more commendable of the two; I don’t blame any students or parents and find neither stance to have any more merit than the other.

    ******God prayers were sheets covered with the words “God have mercy on [name of person]”. They were a standard punishment. Students who were in ‘consequence’ were required to write 2,000 of these a week.

    *******’Six months and under’ was a deceptive wording. It generally meant that anybody who had been good for six months was eligible to come off ‘six months and under’. People who were not off six months could not read books other than things for class work. I never came off and was frequently in trouble, in many cases thrown to the ground and later put in consequence, for reading books. I also wound up introverting into my classes.
    As well as the six months and under, status there were the statuses of ‘on shadow’ and ‘appropriate’********. People on shadow (I was on this pretty much the entire time) were required to stay with their assigned shadow, another student, at all times other than when sleeping, showering, and using the bathroom.

    ********These were people who were generally trusted to snitch on students in ‘life skills’ for breaking the rules. To give an example of something that might come up, I got put on a ban from swaying back and forth and pacing; this was once brought up. Breaking blackout and talking about ‘inappropriate’ (in general, things outside of the school and program) subjects were common things brought up.

    People played the game by a strong system of rewards and punishments; some students even began to internalize the indoctrination of the school as morally good. The largest rewards were visits with parents. Parents could visit the students for ten hours once a month (phone calls were fifteen minutes for once a week and always monitored). In the beginning, these visits were on-shadow and on-campus (during the twenty-two months I was there I saw the outside of campus less than ten times); but if students were good, they could get visits without a shadow********* and go off campus. Sometimes they could have longer visits than five hours each of the two days the parents were there. In some cases, they could even stay with their parents at a hotel. The privileged few (those who were seen to be completely indoctrinated) could even visit home for a weekend. In all cases, visits were only once a month.
    The more everyday rewards were things like additional food, the ‘privilege’ to sit on padded surfaces, the ‘privilege’ to watch movies when they played on the weekends, the ‘privilege’ to play card games and board games on weekends, and the ‘privilege’ to eat sweets (when they were passed out) and drink juice on the weekends.

    *********Still, parents would often report things the students’ said to them. It is truly unbelievable how brainwashed to parents were. I have no idea how the place managed to keep me there for twenty-two months; that they’d even keep me there more than a month turned out to be a little bit of a shocker for me.